Everyday I live my life in fear, fear of something horrible happening, as if I'm going to finally break down to an extent where I just can't come back from it.
I have periodic moments where I just break down, and start hearing things, seeing things, feeling things that in all honesty are not there. But in my dillusional mind I believe they are real. I lose touch with reality and when it ends, I pass out.
I have no recolection of what happens each time. People tell me what I had just done, or said. Even when they tell me, I can't recall of it happening.

Is this schizophrenia? I can't go to a doctor because I keep hearing voices telling me not to.

I don't know what is wrong with me.-I hear voices, saying everything and anything. I see things that aren't real. I pull at my hair, scratch at my arms, start shaking.

I hope this is confidential.