Thank you guys, for the compassion. I had somebody tell me today to "get over it, there are lots of people who have heartache today but you don't deserve to be one of them." I told her the next time she gives birth and then never gets to see the child again, she should let me know how well she handles it. Of course, this is the same chick who told another friend of ours when her ex died that because he was an alcoholic and had some other problems, he had lived a wasted life and was lucky to have died (direct quote). Charming woman.

Today wasn't quite as bad as yesterday. As a Mother's Day greeting, my son's adoptive mom (I should bag the qualifier; she's his mom, period) sent a couple new pictures, so that helped. I've already got them printed out and framed. :-)

I am so glad this forum is here to help survive the rough times. Thanks.

Candy

<i>There used to be a real me, but I had it surgically removed. -- Peter Sellers</i>