I used to cut myself on the wrists during my middle school and high school years. Then, I stopped for two years, and now I am tempted to cut myself again. I feel more like a failure every day! Plus, my future seems hopeless to me. I am panicking and scared. And it seems like the only relief would be to turn my emotional pain into physical pain. I was always calmer after sobbing and cutting myself. No one ever knew; everyone thought I was fine. They were happier when I cut myself. I have nowhere to vent now, so I talk about it, and people think I am a burden or freak. I should start cutting again. It keeps my mouth shut. But at the same time, I want to end this habit for good.