I was so up the last couple of weeks, so much going on with getting a new job, etc.

But I had been thinking about taking a trip back east to the Berkshires, where I used to live. I miss it so much. I'm from Michigan originally. I've been stuck in California for 44 years. I miss the change of seasons terribly. I was going to just go to the Berkshires for a weekend, see the changing leaves, shoot some footage of where I used to live, eat pumpkin donuts, etc. I even found a do-able airfare. But my friend in Albany now says she can't be available the weekend I wanted to go. If she doesn't pick me up from the airport, let me sleep on her couch and drive me around (so I can shoot the film), which she originally said she would, then I can't take the trip.

I could almost smell the Autumn crispness in the air. Now I want to cry.