I have thought about a hospital option, but 1 or 2 things have prevented me from going farther with it. 1st I am afraid to ask for a vacation there. I am also afraid of my ex and his wife joking about it--either to me or to themselves and family--and of them using it against me for being with my kids, which they already severely restrict. If it were to happen I would want it under medical. I am sure that if I confess everything to my primary doc and he brainstormed and got creative, he just might be able to come up with something for an excuse. I know my time is coming. Someday.

Yeah, I am aware of health issues with OD'ing--because of my pharmacy and nursing backgrounds. I am sure that I should have been in the hospital at least once or twice. True, a person can feel worn out and like crap afterwards. A
caseworker who knew what I did asked once very concerned if I was okay to drive. I answered that I was able to drive there. In reality, tho, I doubt that I should have been driving.