You are right. It's a choice I have made... for the most part anyhow. And when I think about it I do have a few friends. I've just crawled into a shell and pushed them away. I don't socialize beyond ordinary run ins with people in my day to day life. But I feel that this is the wrong way for me to be. I love being alone because it gives me time to think and space to breath. It removes all the imaginary threats that I'm incorrectly percieving. But on the other hand its completely self destructive. It dosn't come out of the desire to be alone, I'm hiding. It would be different if I liked being alone for the sake of being alone and nothing else.

Thanks for stimulating my mind