I've had that problem too afraid to call crisis center because they do call the police alot of times, but if you feel that way you should call someone and even if you have noone call anyways, i feel like that alot and called on myself the last time and the taxi drove me there as i had asked them not to send the police. i had a 16 year old sister who committed suicide and that whole can never be replaced so don't do anything stupid think of all the people you'll hurt especially your mom if she's still alive, it broke all of our hearts and the pain never goes away