I realize I'm having major issues with paranoia.

It's come to me slowly and I can't determine what is real and what isn't at this point.

My paranoia is centered around a specific person who I don't really know and who doesn't really know me, but is my husband's best friend. This person is extremely triggering to me, and it's actually causing problems in my relationship with my husband it's so bad.

I can't tell what's real and what's not real about my paranoia surrounding this person. But, the sound of my husband typing on his keyboard or even laughing when I'm not in the room can trigger me. It's not all the time, but very often.

I don't know what to do. I have several scenarios about this person which I can't tell how real or unreal they actually are, and how he is trying to destroy my life and my husband. It gets to the point where I am fighting intense inpulsive to attack him (not physically,) and see his life ruined instead as revenge.....

My husband is usually supportive but in this area he can't help me because, although he tries he doesn't understand that I seem to have actual paranoia and not "media paranoia" as in an off handed remark (stop being so paranoid.) So my husband sees me going into rage towards his friend who he claims is innocent and defends him, which only makes it worse, because then we get into an argument. And when I try to discuss it, he doesn't understand that I have actual paranoia....

I have re-typed this like 4 times, because I feel bad. My husband has other friends who don't trigger me this way. It's only this one friend. And because of it, my husband has become sort of secretive and protective of his friend against me, which makes me even more paranoid.... -.-

I know already "see a pdoc." I know that. But.... what do I do until I can? I don't know how to reality check these issues.