We've talked about it mutliple times. It's hard to explain actual paranoia to someone who doesn't have it. I mean, everyone has the basic paranoia. But the level that I get it is so far away beyond that, and if you're used to being able to just... 'figure out' things easily (he's good at that,) it's hard to grasp.... and.... since it's his friend he feels attacked. And I feel bad. -.-

I knew something was brewing but it took me this long to figure out what it was exactly. I've actually been struggling with this for quite a long time, and all of my scenarios are really powerful now.

I feel that... if I could actually talk to his friend and get to know him that it might help. But I don't feel that is possible. But, I also can't tell if it's my paranoia, but I do know my husband won't want me to talk to him to clarify things, because of his protectivness.... both of his friend and of me. I can't explain. My mind is all over the place and I can't tell what is real or not in this situation.... it's like watching a movie in 3D. It looks really coming at you. But it's not....