Sailaway,

Welcome to Psych Central!

You do have a very good understanding of the therapy process and what your problems are.

If you explain this to your therapist she may give you some grounding techniques to help you to stay in the here-and-now, between and during therapy sessions.

You can take some things with you to therapy that help you to feel safe. I take a bag with me with things that are a comfort, or help me to stay grounded.

It is difficult to talk and your T will be aware of this.

I find drawing, writing poetry, and writing a diary very helpful. You could write down your feelings and show that to your therapist.

Writing things down really helps.

Take care.