I do have hobbies, gerbils and voluntary work which all help to get a break from my feelings, but as soon as i am alone they flood back. i would love to go to a gym, but unfortunately the only accessible one in my area is only for people with other dx's so i can't go, i am going to try and ask to be referred again but don't hold out much hope. throwing things is a great help, i often gather stones then go to the river and throw them one by one as hard as i can into the water.

[feel so wrapped up in my on brain I cant even think of anything I like]

i get like that too, and although i do have hobbies i rarely follow them.

if you find punching theraputic have you tried the pillows on your bed or a big soft toy or the sofa