I'm feeling (again) a little like I don't know which way is up. This morning during our daily meeting (me and alters), I asked about the light-headedness from yesterday and found out that it has something to do with a protective alter trying to shield me from something or someone. She has been active all week, saying things to steer me away from conversations, singing music so loudly that I can't think of anything else.

She was singing today during the meeting when I tried to ask what is going on and she wouldn't stop. I asked the controller (of the switching) to please send her back a little bit so that I could talk and the controller told me that was a bad idea for now. She then said "You need to get some medication from the psychiatrist so that you can weather the storm that is coming." I felt like the Oracle from The Matrix just spoke to me.

In reading back over this, I realize this sounds like bad TV. I feel embarassed, but would really like to know if anyone has had something like this. I want to feel not so alone.

Also, would anyone be willing to share about anti-anxiety medicine and how it works for you with DID when you are pretty co-conscious? I think I'm going to make the appt on Monday morning.

Elizabeth