Yes, I just started getting help for the abuse. I realized that I really can't hold it in and try to ignore it because that's what made matters worse for me.

Now that you mention that, the "victim mentality" I definitely have my subconcious patterns. I just always thought those were my triggers for the PTSD. I've just learned to accept it and I thought that's just how I was. This is definitely an eye opener.

Thank you so much, this has really made me want to focus on what triggers my victim mentality and figure out how many subconscious patterns I have.