Ever since I was a teenager I knew two things:
1. I was going to be a mom by the age of 22 ( married by 21).
2. The purpose of my being was to be a mother.

Well when I was 21, I got married. 22,23,24, and now 25 have come and gone. No baby.

For the past two years solid, wanting a baby has consumed me. What sucks so much, is everyone around me is getting pregnant..EVERYONE. We are now going through fertility treatments, and as I am trying to be positive, it's so hard because I can't figure out why we can't get pregnant on our own. I have become so emotional and so hateful/jealous towards women who are pregnant or have a newborn baby. This was not supposed to be my life plan. I am to the point that I only want one baby and then want to have birth control implantation, so I won't have anymore children. The way I feel righ now, I wish on no one.