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Originally Posted by Anika.
(((Speed))) 
Not sick of hearing it at all. You know... you are amazing. I am also a mother, and I cannot understand what it must be like. I think the most painful thing ever possible times 1 million.. maybe. I don't know how you are pulling through this or finding the strength.. but you are.
I am so sorry you have to do all this, I really am. Just take it one second at a time. That's all there is in our lives, this second.. just right now. Remember that your son loved you and would want you to carry on, to smile again, to feel warmth. It will happen again, and for him.
You are amazingly strong, a loving devoted mother and a beautiful human. No matter how surreal this all must feel, those are truths.
Just try to stay with each moment. Try not to think about the days to come. We will be here no matter what.. keep talking all you need or want to  |
Anika,
Thank you! Your words bring me strength.
About 30 minutes ago I was in the kitchen cleaning up and found the set of measuring cups I had just got Jason. He loved to cook. When he was making Christmas cookies he complained that a lot of our measuring cups were missing.
The day before he died my husband and I stopped in the thrift shop at the hospital where he works. I found a beautiful set of measuring cups, I almost did not get them because they are sterling silver. I thought they might not be practical. When I got home I could not wait to give them to him. I teased him that only sterling silver was good enough. He gave me a big smile. (My sweet boy)
Well he never got to use them. This morning when I saw them I noticed the handles are angels with hearts. They will go in his casket along with his beloved dogs collar and his favorite pool stick. His father will put around his neck a Celtic cross, that matches the ones we will wear.
There will be a bagpiper at his funeral. Legend has it that the bagpipe can be heard in Heaven.
There are no words Jason to say how much your dad and I love you
MY BEAUTIFUL ANGEL
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JASON 8/17/1985 to 1/03/2013
I miss you sweetheart