I agree.. you have had alot to process in the last couple of years and its no easy task... it gets the better of us sometimes.. overwhelming us..have you ever talked to a grief counselor?

I think talking with your doctor is a good idea... or a counselor at school might be a good place to start... but by all means.. don't let this go too long without checking into it.

And don't worry about lengthy posts...you should see how I can ramble on about things... talking is a good thing.. and until you do see someone about this i hope you will try to at least do some writing. if not here,do it in a journal. let your feelings out.. don't hold them in where they build up and become a burden to your soul..

What about your mom? is she in your life? can you talk to her?I have a 16 year old son and he is the most important person in my life... I would hate the thought of him silently suffering..

Let us know how you make out with this. .we care... Good Luck.. Faith