Well so I found the information about this online. And i realize it's not going to be easy to do on my own. But it's only a short time I hope on my own.

Anyway, I told my husband all about it and what he thinks. He thinks it's fine to try. And I told him I would need his help with some things. Since I can't tell what's what in the middle of it, and it's more like when people start to point things out that. Even right now, thinking about these beliefs and knowing that they aren't true, I feel that they are true. Even knowing my husband that I trust completely tells me it's not true, I struggle with it, that I can't help but feel it is true. Even the thoughts that when I look at them, I can see it's illogical, but I still can't get past them.... Like, they make my heart race and I start to feel panic and freak out.... -.-

So, I tried to find like a tracker online. I wish there was one, because that's easier for me. But, there isn't. So, I'm going to journal it on a small notebook.

And, I want to give my husband information on psychosis, especially this type of paranoia.