Thank you all so much. Of four children, I just assumed that I would be the first one to to "go"..because I was the eldest. It just seems so bizare and terrible to have three younger siblings go before me.

I have a half sister in Calif., however there isen't a real close bond as I've only just met her once.

I HAVE to give this to my higher power as it is just too much for me to handle emotionally.

I am so greatful to be able to express myself here.

Thanks to all of you...including Dr. Grohol..and all of the wonderful moderators.

I wish us all Peace and serenity.

dottie