Thanks, Genetic!

I am shakey today.

I am having my racing thoughts and most of them are what I consider normal thoughts, just random fluff. But, then I get these looped in thoughts about this situation.

Last night went better. I was better able to fight down the triggers a bit. Just constantly saying "not real, not real, not real." Even as my mind is screaming at me that it is real.... uhg.... -.-