My heart goes out to you. I was pregnant 4 times and miscarried on three of those. I wanted so much to have three children, but then I found out I could not get pregnant again. It seems all so unfair, that some woman who want so much to be a mom cannot get pregnant while some who do not get pregnant. There are no easy answers that I can offer you, just hope that it can happen when we do not expect it. Recently my niece got pregnant at 38 after being married 20+ years and having tried and tried. Miracles happen and many of the fertility treatments now available have been successful. I just want to tell you that I care and can identify with the emptiness that you may feel. But don't give up -- Keep trying. It is worth it