Hi LilMercy ~ If you really feel like harming yourself, you need to call your counselor! I hope you have a number for him/her. But please give him a call and talk to him. Don't harm yourself. That does NOT solve anything, sweetie.

Harming yourself will only make you feel guilty, right? It will just add to your problems, and emotions. It doesn't solve a thing -- it makes matters worse. And you know that your fiance' will be very very angry with you. You certainly don't want that!

Please don't do it honey. I'm sorry this reply is so long in coming. I didn't see it until tonight. Use all self-control you have -- sometimes it takes every fiber of our being to keep from doing something, but we feel better for it.

God bless sweetie, and take good care of yourself. Big hugs, Lee