Okay. Dark Heart X, you need to (in my opinion) talk to your psychiatrist about just
what you are expressing to us. Your meds may need tweaking or you may have
something bothering you that is considered a cerebral allergy.

Only an allergist or a psychiatrist can explore that for you to locate the problem,
but I feel sure one or the other of them will find the problem for you and resolve it.

Let us know how you get along; I'll be thinking about you and listening for good
news that it has been resolved for you.