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Is it possible that you are worried that other people will think that you are just trying to get attention?
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I think that's one aspect of it.
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There is a similar feeling for some rape victims. If they haven't been severely beaten, tortured or what ever else on top of being raped, that somehow makes their rape less significant than others. That just isn't true, but some feel that way, just as you feel that shallow cuts are not significant. I know its a strange comparrison, but it came to mind when I read your post.
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Thankfully I've never been a victim of rape, but I understand what you mean. It does remind me of something else.
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It sounds like you are stuck at an impass right now and having trouble getting past it. You are doing a lot of soul searching, and if talking about your thoughts is something you need to do, then go ahead. I don't think anyone here is going to tell you to stop obsessing.
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I'm always stuck in my thoughts. And I don't have a clear sense of self, so I'm always thinking about that as well. I've always lived in my head; I've gotten used to it. But I'm not used to sharing it all with people. I've talked to counsellors for several years, and I still can't get over the feeling for bothering them.
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Maybe there is something you are afraid to face because it is too painful or you just aren't ready, so you get stuck. When you are ready to move ahead, you will. Hopefully your therapist will gently guide you through this. Use the forum as a sounding board. Its hard. You deserve to be happy as much as anyone else does. Remember that.
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I just wanted to say that that affected me most of all. Maybe there is some bigger reason behind how I feel that I haven't found yet.
Thank you, Sam. I can only hope I take all your words to heart. I just can't help but feel you put too much time and effort into a post I don't deserve to receive.