I know what you mean about bothering people - I also feel that a lot of people would have been better off if they had never met me. I am fighting myself each and every day because I think I'm trying to get attention from other people by making them see I'm not feeling well. Is it a cry for help or am I just pathetic and manipulative? I hate the idea of me just manipulating people into feeling sorry for me. I think I have done that a lot before and it's the part of myself that I hate the most and fight with most often.

I also think it's okay and necessary to have someone to talk to, even to get some sympathy sometimes. Everybody deserves some attention.

Just so you know, I spent quite some time on your post and I don't see it as wasted time in the least. I am so relieved that I am not the only one who thinks about this.

Take care