last night when i was so down all of a sudden i think what triggered it was i was watching Murary.. that one talk show.... well they were doing preternity test to see if the guy is the father... well one lady came on here searching for her dad... her mom told her who her dad on the mothers death bed....... My b/f said thats porb want would of happened to me that my mom would of told me on her death bed if i hadnt kept asking about him...... i just felt that that ladyt was lucky cause she got to meet him... and i cant meet mine now cause hes dead.. it just struck me and i guess that why i got down.....