No worries .

Believe it or not, I don't expect the worst as much as I used to, although that's not because of new found confidence, I don't think. Now I feel more numb when I encounter a situation like been rejected; it happens so much that it is easier to deflect. I don't know how else to describe it other than being numb? I am more used to it now I suppose. Compared to previous rejections, it went much better than usual, to name a minor positive.

"If things never go right and you always screw up it is hard to go into any situation w/ a smile": Yes - that is exactly how I feel! I am never able to strike the right balance with things - always too much or too little of something.

How much trying is the right amount of trying? What does a 'catch' look like? How do I appear as a 'catch'? Reminds me of when I did reports for school - it wasn't uncommon for me to be marked down for too much information and too much research. Go figure.

Usually, I would think that a store employee is paid to be nice, but we chatted for 20 minutes last time? She told me where she's from (raise on a farm in a small town nearby), what kind of animals she has and what she likes, that she wants to move to another province, it seemed a lot more than the usual respectfulness of an employee. We were sitting in the back storage area and chatting.

Now I am trying to feel okay being alone 24/7. Another user said she was fine with it. Maybe I can learn too?