{{{{{{{{{{{{JONALEXA}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Just want to let you know that know matter how you feel, you can always come here and tell us anything. I don't know your whole situation, but I can relate to what you said about getting close to someone then wanting to keep everyone away at arm's length. We all desire companionship with support and caring friendship. It can feel very hard when we are hurt. You are not alone. I've been there enough myself, I think. Things will get better. Keep posting.