It sounds like you are on the right track. You understand the problem and you admit to it. The only advice I could suggest is... first of all stop drinking... completely. Second, since you realize your problem you are responsible for fixing it. Realize that paranoia is self destructive. So what if your paranoid perceptions are warranted or delusional? What good does it do to give those thoughts credibility? It does no good to make decisions based on thoughts that might not even be real, and even if they are real. I thik it's best if you can find some quiet time to seriously think about your thoughts that occure through the day. Then analyse them. Soon you will start to see patterns of thought and reactions to those thoughts. Once you become really familiar with your behavior you start to catch yourself in the act of repeating the undesired behavior. And knowing that its destructive you can quickly dash it out before it becomes overwhelming. Sort of like having a thought, thinking about it briefly, deciding if its appropriate, then acting accordingly. It dosn't hurt to see a counselor. Thearapy is great. Just talking to someone about your problems makes you even more aware of them. And once you are aware of them (if we are anything alike) you become slightly angry and have a real desire to fix the problem so that you can move foward in life. Living productivly and being as happy/healthy as possible.