Perhaps it is for a season, in that case it wouldn't be so self destructive. I havn't quite put my finger on exactly what it is I'm trying to avoid by staying alone. Something I just realized that I didn't think about the other day is about how draining social encounters can be. Do you have any experience with that? It's like, sometimes it takes a ton of effort just to keep up in a normal random social situation/conversation. Sometimes its because I'm not interested in the conversation/situation, other times its because I'm focusing on some train of thought.

But yes I do think its unhealthy simply because I'm hidding. I'm going to meditate tonight about what exactly it is that I'm trying to avoid in the outside world. Thanks for your thoughts