((Crysalis))),

What you havent realized "yet" is that the feelings you have are "normal". If you could actually hear the inner thoughts of the other students around you, you would be surprised to know, how many of them feel just like you do. And your art teacher, the fact that he is not engaging with you, isn't your fault at all, he is just "self absorbed" with his own issues and concerns. Young students your age put a lot of value on the way their teachers interact with them, they don't realize that just because someone is a teacher, doesn't mean they are themselves "grown up and balanced".

Take some time and really look at this site, you will begin to see the "real" inner voices of other people, and that many people struggle with questions just like you do.
And most people "want to achieve and be appreciated" and "even worry about doing something wrong and being discarded somehow". It is "very human" to question self worth and even be "sensitive" like you are.

It is important to remember that with all your thoughts and worries, you are "part of" the human race, and not separate from and being judged the way you think you are.
Most people tend to be "self absorbed" and that doesn't mean that when others don't offer you "praise" that you are unworthy. Many people simply don't know "how to praise and appreciate" others, often they are concentrating on their own self worth to notice others.

So a good place to start with self improvement is to realize that many of your concerns are the same as others, it isn't that in order to feel "worthy" you have to get recognition the way you think. You have been putting to much value on the opinions of others who are themselves as vulnerable as you are.

Open Eyes