Sounds like me. I was kind of a meh student in grade school. I was the day dreamer who sat in the corner as far from the teacher as i could. Some of my teachers would notice and move me to the front in an attempt to get me to pay attention lol. Didn't work. I started High school. I was doing pretty good. I was not performing at my 100% but I was doing better then i ever had, New environment therefore excitement and focus. After i got settled in after the first semester thing went down hill. I had meetings with cousnelor and family because I was failing.(I wish my fat fingers would type what i want them to. But that is besides the point) After that it was weird, I put more effort into figuring out how many points i needed for my diploma and where i was at i figured it all out and I did the bare freaking minimum to pass. If i screwed up at all i would been screwed but it was like a way to make getting my diploma exciting by getting exactly what i need to pass lol. I managed to do it but at the end i was freaking out. Plus once the school years got going i was able to get by but when things started getting harder though is when i began to struggle. Whatever was being said or dumped my way, It was almost as if the words were coming at me and my mind saw them coming and was like ninja status and was dodging all it could. I was picking up only bits and pieces. I had a tutor in grade school because i struggled with math. Man was it so dry and boring. I don't think i ever learned anything from that lady. But she made money off my mom so good for her. I get irritated when people come in while i am on my lap top and try to talk to me. games galore. internet galore. all of it. Anything that provides a immediate reward. I am almost to the point with computers i hate them, they give me the sensory stimulation i crave but they consume me and before i know it the whole day is gone and to me it seems if i had just woke up. I almost wish i never discovered computers. But then i would never would have met all of you. I almost think i would be more productive without them but i doubt. Having my PC keeps me from spending every living cent i have. SO they are good and bad. Gotta love being pulled in different directions. Well enough for now. I may type more later if i think of anything else.
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