and the rest of it!

...sometimes things happen suddenly!...like a fly landing on my eyeball

like an open door slamming real LOUD because of the masssive suction of air pressure!

like the instant physical attraction to sexual desires!

like the salivating when so yummy food is in sight....

like the impact of a fast car into a BIG tree...

like the gloom of debt suddenly upon meeting the mailbox.

like the gasp when the water goes cold in the shower

like when someone admits they hate you

like an illicit drug injection like a broken bone like a panic!

.....

my family sprung this upon me today they aint around much but they think alot anyway and stuff and seem to think I am autistic in some way...

like the perfect alignment of borderline and bipolar and adhd...

I said ..."well yeah sure! ..can I really just be myself now?"

cos autistic brains operate in an alternative dimension....and any attempt to divert this causes misery...

and it's a wide door to go through..I don't know enough about it?
but if it's true?...I will jump on it suddenly