My life is stagnant, boring, and dull. I am fed up of being this way. It's like I'll never ever know any of the sources to my behaviour and problems. It's like I just have to accept it, which there is no way I will accept myself. Not a chance, I have to shittiest humour tastes ever, by far the WORST EVER. So bad it's just unbearable. It's because of that I can't laugh at a sitcom, stand up comedian, joke, anecdote, you name it. Everyone else can laugh, but me; but if I do, it's something that's so pathetic, stupid, childish and random it's nit even funny. I am unwilling to accept myself. I hate myself, I hate having to live with mild symptoms of blunted affect, and subconsciously refusing to move away from my comfort zone. I am stuck there all the time. I hate my boring life. I am insecure. I have no decent qualifications, like GCSEs. (Anyone from the UK, if you have good GCSEs at A-C and high A-level grades, I envy you) I hate the fact that I am working at BELOW entry level maths. I don't have a learning difficulty, before anyone mentions. I have autism but this has nothing to do with my maths. I hate my house, there is nothing positive in my life. I will not think positive, because there is nothing to be positive about. I strongly suspect to be narcissistic, I suffer from inferiority and superiority complex. I have to live at home, where it is shabby, old fashioned, vile and grim. I don't know anything about anything, I am not intelligent, I am naturally stupid. I suspect that struggle with outward expressions but I don't get irritated much. But my life is so rubbish. Help please.