Memory lapses, disorganization, procrastination, anger, physical illness... becoming a person I am not... unsympathetic, rude, closing myself off from the world. New and worse anxiety and panic attacks. I became obviously uncaring and avoided everything and everyone (including family)outside of home... gosh the list could go on for a long while... The job started feeding my mental illness and made it consume me! So glad to be out of there and dealing with the issues it created. I did have to go there today to fill out some papers... the first time in 5 months and almost totally couldn't do it. The panic/anxiety was so bad! But I talked to my fiance all the way there and talked to myself A LOT! I made it and lived through it. I feel like I cleared the biggest hurdle! I am on the mend! I wish you the best of luck and hope you are able to find a technique that works for you so you will not have the issues I developed.