Sadley, you are NOT alone in this! And Lindammarie said it ALL and put it very very well! I have battled depression and associated illnesses since I was 7 years old (knocking on 40). At that time doctors just wanted to give me a pill to make me sleep and turn me into a Zombie that my family could deal with. As I got older and started seeking T or C I had my share of these experiences too. I would like to share some things and know I am going to fail to put it well. It is from my experiences and I truly hope it can help you. In this case it sounds like your T is trying to make you comfortable and lighten your mood with his humor. However, ill timed the humor maybe. The book thing... well perhaps it was a hope that it would help you open up or start a line of communication he can follow. What I am about to say is much easier said then done when dealing what you are dealing with, but it really helped me: You are going to have to take control of your sessions and stand up and say that this type of treatment is not working! If you need to sit down and make a list of the things the T is trying and how you feel about it, then do it. Also make an outline of your needs, wants and expectations for the T. Ask if he can fulfill them and if not, no harm, no foul, but you have to find someone willing to work with you on a level comfortable for you and that you feel is beneficial to you! He may not understand how to reach you and is just as frustrated as you are, hoping to find the right thing to say or the right way to help you. The best outcome is that you and him can find a way to work together or you find a new T who can help in a way that you respond to. Depression robs us of our control and courage! It is a huge leap for someone who feels so low, I know. Just don't give up! If this one thing turns out successful perhaps you will feel better about taking control of other things in your life. Once I realized I do have some control and what I feel, say or think matters, it was became easier and less scary. Here if you need to talk. As you can see I have way too much to say!