"Just can feel like I am so lost and that I can't be fixed " quote Mr V

I have felt that way myself V, that is a part of PTSD, especially complex PTSD that can go way back to early childhood.

I am glad to hear you are back in therapy, sounds like you have a woman for a therapist now. I hope she proves to be a good match for you, that is important, and sometimes it takes some time to realize you have a good match with a T.

My T is a nice man, very patient, and I had to have that because whenever I had a session with him, I talked and talked and filled his room with so much. It just felt soooo good to have someone listen without telling me to "just deal and get over it".

If I were to draw a picture of me, I would draw a woman in her 50's suddenly having her whole life shattered in pieces on the floor and her trying very hard to figure out all the pieces and put herself back together somehow. And there were so many painful confusing pieces too. It is not something a regular person could understand either.

I think that you should take as much time as you need to talk, because you have wanted that for a long time V, and you need to have the right kind of person who can "listen" and actually "hear" you and even "validate you and help you learn how to finally heal". That is why it is better to have an "experienced" T.

(((Hugs)))
Open Eyes