bethsway, its ok, i understand what you are going through. try to calm down abit, breathe deep breaths slowly. relax.

i sometimes get like that before an occasion, and i know its not nice.

i suppose the only way to beat it is to confront it. confronting your fears helps to conquer it. id suggest that you go and hold your head up high and be proud of who you are, i would be if i were you.

you are a kind, caring, considerate person and this is why you worry about letting this special person down.

if you feel panicky, go to a toilet and clam down, or go outside and have some fresh air. tyr to stay calm, and try talking to people about things you enjoy, see if they enjoy the same things.

you have nothing to worry about bethsway, i think you will be the star of the party. and i mean that.

sorry, i know this isnt helping, so i will wrap it up, but all i can suggest is to go and face up to it, by giving into it and staying at home, it is harder next time you are invited to a special occasion. just think of it as being a short space in time and that it wont last forever, and think whos party it is. im sure you will be fine.

i usually find that if i dread a certain occasion and am not happy about going, i still go and end up enjoying it alot more than i thought i would. if you talk yourself into thinking it will be a rubbish party, when you get there and get stuck into talking to the other guests, you will find it is actually better than you expected.

if you do decide to go, let me know how it goes yea?

speak soon

simon