I have depression and my family wants to help but to me it seems like every time they do try and help it just makes me feel worse or they're not doing what I thought they would do for me. What do I want them to do for me you ask? Well the most annoying part of that question is that I don't have the answer, I don't know how they can help me.
My doctor has given me medication for my depression but all I've been doing so far it laying in my bed thinking about all the things I regret. I just can't stop thinking about all the things I'm mad about or things I should have done that could have helped me later on in life.
My Mom talked to me recently, to me she seems really frustrated about the fact that I'm not getting better. I know for a fact that she does not understand what it feels like to be depressed, it's feeling helpless and worthless. So, how can she expect me to help myself when I don't have the will power to and don't even know how?
I want to feel better but honestly I think I'm scared to get better. I worry so much about what I'm going to do in life and how things will change if I start to feel better. I just want everything to stop.