Sounds like you made your decision but fear has you "captive". Fear is the root of all evil. Don't let it rule you. When in doubt ask God and wait, he will guide you. Now, remember you can't expect happiness just like that. No one can make you happy and in order for you to achieve moments of happiness you need to be a positive person. Is a process like all in life... Reach for contentment.. Is more stable than happy..