I am so sorry Mr.V
I can only imagine the disappointment and heartache that you're feeling inside. I wonder why your Mom decided to share these issues with you? What is the benefit?? Perhaps you have been asking your Mom about your father ~ wondering where he's been?
Your father is a very selfish man. His reasoning for not staying with you is completely heartbreaking to me! I can't recall if you see a T or not, but I sure would recommend seeing a professional to help you through these dark thoughts and emotions brought up by your Mom.
You are a good man ~ I'm glad that your father is no longer around you, putting you down and withholding his love. He doesn't deserve you! My thoughts are with you...gentle hugs sent your way.