Through your writing I see someone who doesn't deserve to be rejected or alienated by their family. I understand how they make you feel so low and how hard life is right now because of that. Their truth, the way they treat you, the way the make you feel, it's not the only truth. I'm sorry you don't have anyone to turn to right now. I know it's hard and from the inside it often seems as if there is no relief and no way though. I think you will find the strength to stand up for yourself again. You're worth fighting for.