I was thinking of you yesterday Speed3. I was remembering you were burying your only child, Jason. I was wondering how you were faring. I don't know a lot about mania, but I do know that some people do deal with grief by going into 'action' mode. It makes them feel like they are doing something constructive. Mind you, your thoughts are racing and you are not sleeping. I think it would be difficult to relax at this time too. Perhaps you are hypomanic. I'm sorry your pdoc was useless to you. What do you feel would be helpful to you at this time?? Probably nothing, but if anything, do let us know. I got a notice in my e-mail from the funeral home that my candle for Jason was lit. I got four notices so maybe they lit four candles for me!! You remain in my thoughts. It will be the toughest time for you now as everyone else goes back to 'normal', but you will most certainly not. We are here for you.