Hi. I am in a similar situation. As soon as I brought up I think I have BPD it was avoided like the plague and told that is not a stigma you want attached to you for the rest of your life. But hello......how are we expected to recover if we aren't treating the right things ? Some doctors say the diagnosis is not important , but I totally do not buy that. For a few reasons, being self aware of what is going on and how to not trigger those things and how to help yourself is necessary you educate and understand the nature of your illness. Anyway, keep fighting for yourself and find a doctor that will openly talk with you about what he thinks is going on and explain why....in my opinion when something is true all of the sudden the pieces will fit together like a puzzle and the whole picture will become clear...you will have an ahh haa moment Good luck !