I've restricted, binged, and attempted to purge in the past year and a half.
I went to a GP with my mother. It boiled down to a discussion about health and just the food groups, my mother worrying about me not having enough carbs.

The reason for the visit was to discuss my eating habits. I didn't open up, though I nearly did, because I still want to lose a few pounds. Whilst the doctor was talking about facts I already knew, I was already thinking how I can deceive the scale for my next visit's weigh-in (I knew I'll lose weight).

Ha. I'm really changing how I think about food, but I slip and get annoyed. I don't think my mother will recognize what I'm going through now. She never mentioned my self-harm to the GP. She called it "moody." How could she?

I stopped tracking calories.

What should I do? I feel trapped.