What a sick man. And your mother had no reason to pass that onto you. Many hugs to you, and as you grow, may the pain they caused be worked out by you until it can't hurt you like it does now.
My mother told me if she had known where to get an abortion she would have. I have learned to accept her a cruel and miserable person. It has been a great time of healing for me to accept the situation as it is and care for myself enough to let go of the relationship with her that I dreamed of. Now she's old and I have forgiven her because I want no regrets when she goes.