My son has two out of three of your "flaws". He was nonverbal at 5 and is still in speech at 15 and was diagnosed with Asperger's at 4 or 5. I'll admit, he's been a challenge at times and we were hard on disciplining him at first because we didn't understand, but we love him just the same. I'm sorry you've had such a hard time and that your dad didn't love you.