Or another thing I noticed about it PD, not just in bipolar but a lot of humans is that we need lots and lots of proof to believe positive things. But negative things we believe without much if any proof at all.

Even celebrity media, if we hear something bad about someone we seem more apt to belive it. If it is something really positive we want evidence, spreads sheets, pie charts and survelience almost.

If it is about our own selves we seem to need even more proof if it's positive and even less proof to belive the negative. It doesn't seem very balanced so it's much easier for the negative to win.