I'm in a place like that right now, too. Afraid to talk to people because they'll just say that trite crap that makes it worse when you're in too deep to see the future. I hear you. It's a time to be endured and enduring is damned hard work :-(.

How long have you been on this course of treatment? Can you describe any differences at all (good, bad, ugly, weird, *anything*) since you went on the current medication regimen?