I can relate to what you are going through. My H and I tried several years to get pregnant and didn't. We then tried 6 rounds of insemination and none if them worked. I just started my first cycle of IVF. I'm really hoping it works, because like you, all I've ever really wanted since I was little was to be a mom. I totally get the feeling jealous of pregnant moms and new moms as well as the HUGE disappointment of negative pregnancy tests. Good luck, I'll be praying for both of us!