Your dad had some serious issues. I can't diagnose him from the given information, so I don't know why he thought of and treated you the way he did. However, I did read enough to know that the answer lies within him; not you.

Children often deify their parents, as if their word was the ultimate law of the universe. It takes them a long time to realize that their parents are just flawed human beings like everybody else.

I hope you are past this stage and can come to terms with this truth. If you base your self-image and worth on his view of you, then you will make yourself miserable.